Trying to be spiritual or spiritually inclined in this material world is like trying to walk in water - nearly impossible.
Have you ever tried to walk in water?
It is really hard !
This material world is designed to be anti spirit and pro matter.
It is called the material world after all.
So we should not beat ourselves up when we find that things are tough and not going ourway.
Don't fall for the false humility syndrome or the "I am the greatest sinner" mindset.
Just keep going!
Maya is already successful when we just start to think we are too useless to stick at our spiritual life.
But Krsna stays in the Bg that He carries what we lack and preserves what we have.
So we have nothing to fear really as Krsna will definitely pick us up when we falter.
