I find that Krsna Consciousness is not for the faint hearted.
It gets to the core of who you are and yanks away the false ego - our comfort blanket for so long.
We try to become averse to the material world by becoming fanatics in the spiritual world.
But it does not work like that - Krsna Consciousness is a natural revolution of the heart - not an artificial imposition.
And like any natural relationship - it has to be worked at - slowly - respectfully.
We cannot rubber stamp ourselves as Vaisnavas just because we walk the walk and talk the talk ... oh and wear good tilak !
The core of this whole process I am finding is based around RELATIONSHIPS.
Our desire to have them, to avoid them and to control them.
We want to be selfish in deciding who we speak to, how we speak to them and when we do it. But it does not work like that... what about the other person and their free will?
In the spiritual world the objective is to serve the other person regardless of whether we get what we want... in fact our desires are fulfilled when we see the other person happy.
In the material world it is a matter of seeing who strokes my false ego the most and that is my friend -that is my well wisher.
But actually we have to work on ourselves first.
Make the change within and then our interaction, behaviour with others, speech, consciousness will all follow...
A deep subject I feel and one that requires deep friendships to get through.
